Listening to Anxiety Instead of Fighting It

Anxiety doesn’t usually arrive out of nowhere. It develops quietly, often after long periods of pushing, coping, managing, being “fine”, until one day your nervous system taps you on the shoulder and says: I can’t do this like this anymore.

Burnout and anxiety can completely floor you. Just because it isn’t visible doesn’t make it any less real. What I hear so often from people is this sense of confusion and self-doubt, why now? why can’t I cope like I used to?…….especially when they’ve been functioning, caring for others, working, surviving, for a very long time.

Something I’ve been sitting with myself recently is how anxiety often shows up as a protector emotion. It gets a bad reputation, but it usually isn’t trying to harm us. It’s trying to protect us from something underneath.

For me, starting a new course recently stirred up a lot of anxiety. Not because I didn’t want to do it, there was no lovic involved, this was purely involuntary and caught me by surprise. This was because when I slowed down and really listened, I realised what the anxiety was guarding was fear. Fear of getting it wrong. Fear of not knowing enough. Fear of not having worked with these people before. Fear of being exposed. And honestly… that makes complete sense. New experiences activate old survival wiring. Our brains like the familiar, even when the familiar is uncomfortable.

So instead of fighting the anxiety, I asked myself what it needed. I did the things we often forget are allowed as adults. I went for a walk. I listened to music. I talked it through with safe people. I did some research so I felt more prepared. I made sure I had the materials I needed to hand. And I gently reminded myself…..the way I would a child, directly to little me, that this is new, you’re allowed to not be perfect, you don’t have to get it all right first time.

That shift matters. Because anxiety often eases when it feels heard, not dismissed.

This is the work I do in therapy and supervision. We don’t shame anxiety or try to bulldoze it away. We get curious about what it’s protecting you from, and we build safety and capacity around that. We work with your nervous system, not against it. Especially if you’re burnt out, overwhelmed, or exhausted from holding it all together.

If you’re reading this and recognising yourself, diagnosis or not, you’re not weak, broken, or failing. Your system has been working very hard for a very long time.

What about you? Have you had moments like this, where anxiety showed up around something new or important? What helped, even a little?

Stay safe. Stay connected. Take gentle care.

Louise

If this resonates and you’d like to explore working with me in therapy or supervision, you’re very welcome to reach out for a free, no-obligation introductory chat. Finding the right person matters, that’s where healing begins.

LouiseMalyanCounselling@gmail.com

A Day of Learning (ADHD, Regulation, and Being Human)

Today has been a day of learning.

For me, and for Arthur, the therapy puppy.

ADHD often comes with chaos. A mouth that speaks before the brain has fully caught up. Reactions that happen fast, honest, and unfiltered. Before diagnosis, this can be especially painful, because being misunderstood and having assumptions made about you is something many of us have lived with our whole lives.

We’re often led to believe that we are the problem. That speaking plainly, directly, without fluff or bubble wrap, is wrong. So we try harder. We use more words. We over-explain. We desperately want to be understood.

Many people with ADHD are visual learners. Verbal instructions can feel like someone suddenly speaking Swahili, the words are there, but they don’t land. We’re trying to understand, truly we are.

Our energy can shift quickly. Full of ideas and momentum one moment, utterly exhausted and overwhelmed the next.

And then there’s rejection sensitive dysphoria (RSD).

RSD is an involuntary, intense emotional response to perceived rejection or criticism. It’s not a choice. It’s not dramatic. It’s a nervous system reaction that can feel physically painful.

A delayed reply. A change in tone. A raised eyebrow. Being told you’re selfish, inconsiderate, or not thinking of others.

When you already try so hard to understand people, include them, and do the right thing, those words can cut like a knife. All we want is to belong. To be included. To be loved.

Today, while trying to sort some admin, I spilled juice all down myself. I became so overwhelmed I couldn’t read the words on the page or make sense of what I was doing. I found myself sitting among a pile of washing, an overfilled bin bag that had burst open, and a crushing sense of uselessness.

Tears came. My chest hurt. And the familiar thought arrived: I’m 46, I should have this shit sorted by now.

So I did the only thing my nervous system could manage.

I put my coat and shoes on, grabbed my bag, and walked.

Tears streaming down my face, I walked and walked. Then I stopped.

Arthur was trotting along beside me on a loose lead, stopping to sniff, occasionally looking up to check in with me. A few weeks ago, he couldn’t do this. Not like this. And there we were, not perfect, but so much further along.

I’d been using visuals. Treats. Repetition. And slowly, it was landing.

I went home a little more grounded. The mess was still there. The puppy and Steve the cat got involved. I still couldn’t do the admin. But the washing got washed. The rubbish got sorted.

I stepped away. Then back.

Not to some miraculous breakthrough, but to the realisation that a walk and a bar of Galaxy chocolate had helped.

I’m not a dog. Treats don’t magically transform my brain.

What did happen was regulation. Enough calm returned for me to carry on a little.

For most of our lives, neurodivergent people have been forced into square holes we simply don’t fit into. Many turn to addiction to manage the relentless overwhelm. For some, it all becomes too much. Too many people never receive the care, understanding, and support they need to keep going. We are traumatised from insults, being shouted at and punishment.

Masking is exhausting. And it doesn’t always work. Sometimes that creates more confusion and pain that we should never have felt was an option to use to survive.

Our brains are different. Often running a hundred miles an hour faster than the world around us.

Tonight at training, when I had to ask twenty times, when I needed things shown rather than told, that was okay. My trainer offered that. I know how I learn. And I want to understand.

So if you struggle, diagnosis or not, please know this: it isn’t just a you thing. There are other ways. Find what works for you. Step away if you can to regroup. Ask yourself what has helped before.

And for anyone who treats others as if they’re stupid, lazy, or choosing this – it isn’t a choice. Empathy isn’t about fixing or correcting. It’s about showing the other person that you get it.

And Arthur?

Yes, he pulled the next time I took him out. Ran me in circles. Came home for snuggles. And the admin still wasn’t done.

But that’s okay.

Tomorrow is another day.

Stay safe, stay connected, take gentle care,

Louise x

This is how I work in therapy and supervision. We don’t try to force you into systems that don’t fit, or shame you for how your brain and nervous system respond. We slow things down, use what works for you, visuals, creativity, honesty, stepping back when it’s too much, and we work with regulation rather than against it. Whether you’re neurodivergent, traumatised, burnt out, or just exhausted from holding it all together, you don’t have to keep doing it alone. If any of this resonates and you’d like to explore working with me in therapy or supervision, you can email me at louisemalyancounselling@gmail.com. There is another way, and it doesn’t involve fixing who you are.

Making Time, Choosing What Matters

We often say we want to do things.

We say we want to rest more. Learn more. Move our bodies. Care for ourselves. Grow.

And then we say we don’t have time.

Yet when we pause and really look, time is often being spent elsewhere – scrolling, consuming, reacting. Screen time quietly stretches into hours. Things we believe are “fixed” or “can’t be moved” often aren’t quite as immovable as they feel.

Sometimes it isn’t about time at all.

It’s about permission.

Self-confidence plays a huge role here. When we don’t feel secure on the inside, saying no can feel risky. We worry about being left out. Rejected. Forgotten. We prioritise other people’s needs over our own because it feels safer.

When we feel more settled in ourselves, something shifts.

We know it’s okay to say no.

We know it’s okay to have boundaries.

We trust that relationships can survive disappointment.

So when last-minute plans land in our lap and clash with what we’ve already committed to, we don’t have to abandon ourselves. We can say, “I can’t do that today,” without fear that everything will fall apart.

That’s not selfish.

That’s modelling healthy boundaries.

I say this every Wednesday to counsellors and students: block the hour out. Shift appointments slightly. Make it work.

How can one hour a week for yourself, your growth, or your wellbeing feel so impossible?

The bemused looks often say it all.

But here’s the thing: when we grow, learn, and practise self-care, it’s not just for us. It benefits everyone around us. It prevents burnout. It makes us more present, more grounded, more ourselves.

This weekend, for the first time in a long time, I’m doing CPD purely for me. I’m doing a Cricut course. Spending time with my sewing machine. Going for a run. Walking the dog. Making progress on the sex, kink, and addiction courses I’m studying.

I almost went out instead.

But it didn’t work with the puppy, and honestly, I think that was the universe quietly stepping in.

Today is my niece’s birthday. She invited me out for dinner. I’m seeing her next week anyway, so I was honest and said I couldn’t do today.

She’s little, and she completely got it.

There was a flicker of disappointment, of course. That comes from love. But there was also acceptance, reassurance, and a calm certainty that we’d organise something another time. Off she went on her new bike, totally secure in the relationship.

A child understood boundaries better than many adults.

I wasn’t rejecting her.

I just couldn’t do today.

And in the way she received that, I had no doubt she loves me. She can hold disappointment without blame or shame, and then get back to enjoying her day.

Maybe we could all learn something there.

Listening. Hearing. Allowing the feeling. Not attacking or withdrawing. Just understanding.

Because of that, I could return to my original plans, plans I’d already shared and committed to. A weekend of learning at my own pace. Of rest. Of nourishment. Of doing what I need to do to stay well and avoid burnout.

There’s no fear of letting people down when you know your worth and your intentions.

So I’ve put what I need in my diary. With fresh air, some movement, a box of Christmas Heroes, spicy Doritos, and time to think.

And I know I’ll come out the other side richer, in knowledge, in rest, and in a quiet sense of achievement.

Sometimes making time isn’t about finding more hours.

It’s about choosing yourself in the ones you already have.

Stay safe, stay connected, take gentle care,

Louise x

Feelings, Empathy, and Why Being Understood Matters

One of the most painful experiences we can have is not being understood.

You can be surrounded by people, even people who care about you, and still feel deeply alone in how you feel. Often that’s not because anyone is deliberately unkind, but because feelings are invisible, and not everyone has learned how to really see them in others.

A lot of conflict, frustration, and hurt comes from a misunderstanding of what empathy actually is.

We often think empathy means feeling something about another person. But that isn’t quite it.

Take the cinema as an example. You’re watching a film and a character goes through something heartbreaking. You feel sad. You might cry. That feeling is real, but it isn’t empathy. The character doesn’t know you feel it. Nothing has been communicated or received.

What you’re experiencing there is your own emotional response. You might call it sympathy, or resonance, or compassion, but empathy requires something more.

Empathy is relational.

It’s when another person gets it.

When they understand, acknowledge, and reflect your inner experience in a way that lets you know you’re not alone with it.

That’s the space counsellors sit in.

In therapy, it’s not enough for a therapist to quietly feel something on your behalf. The other person needs to know they are understood. Empathy lives in that shared, communicated understanding.

This is also why things can feel so tricky in personal relationships, especially when one person has done a lot of inner work.

It can feel like a game you’ve both been playing for years, with unspoken rules. Then one day, you change. You learn new language. You see patterns. You understand emotions differently.

The problem is, the rules have only changed for you.

The other person is still playing the old game, because they haven’t done the same learning or reflection. Expecting them to suddenly respond with the same level of insight can feel frustrating on both sides.

We see this a lot with neurodivergence too.

For some people, for example, it can be genuinely confusing to understand how someone else feels something they don’t feel themselves. That doesn’t mean there’s no care, it often comes down to differences in what’s known as theory of mind: the ability to recognise that other people have thoughts, feelings, and experiences that are different from your own.

Add trauma into the mix, and things become even more complex.

Someone living in a constant state of fight or flight experiences the world very differently. Their nervous system is always scanning for danger. When others appear to be “getting on with life as normal”, it can feel invalidating, as though there’s an expectation to feel fine simply because nothing obvious is wrong.

But trauma isn’t visible.

Grief is another place where this shows up painfully.

I’ve felt this myself recently. When people haven’t lost someone they love, or don’t experience family bonds in the same way, they often can’t understand the depth or unpredictability of grief. How one moment you can be laughing, and the next you’re floored by a wave of sadness.

That doesn’t mean the feeling is wrong.

It just means it isn’t theirs.

And this is something really important to remember:

Feelings are involuntary.

We don’t choose them. We feel them.

When feelings get pushed down or ignored, anxiety often steps in. Anxiety isn’t the problem, it’s the protector. It tries to keep us safe from feelings we don’t feel able to experience.

A brilliant way of understanding this is through Inside Out 2. When sadness and anger are pushed away, anxiety takes over to protect the system. Once those underlying feelings are allowed space, anxiety no longer has to work so hard.

When someone says, “I feel this way,” they’re not asking you to change how you feel.

They’re not blaming you.

They’re stating a fact about their inner world.

Many people who haven’t done much self-work struggle with this. They may not be ready. They may be scared. They may simply not have the tools yet. And that’s okay, it’s their journey.

Personally, I think therapy is something everyone would benefit from. I see the relief it brings when people finally get to put a weight down. I’ll admit my bias there!!

But even without therapy, there’s something we can all practise.

Respect.

I often think of a line from an interview with Pink that I love: we can all have different views, different beliefs, different opinions, just don’t be a dick.

That applies to feelings too.

It’s not okay to be abusive or nasty to someone because of how they feel. Someone else’s feeling doesn’t invalidate yours.

One of the simplest and most powerful shifts we can make is to speak from the I.

“I feel…” instead of “You always…” or “You make me…”.

That one change can completely alter the tone of a conversation, if the other person is willing to listen.

I was reminded of this recently while watching an interview where the live chat became heated. Someone spoke about coping through prayer and faith, and others responded with ridicule and anger.

That isn’t okay.

If prayer helps someone, it helps them.

If running helps someone, it helps them.

If climbing a mountain helps someone, it helps them.

Not everything works for everyone.

And not everyone has the same relationships, beliefs, nervous systems, or emotional worlds.

Empathy isn’t about agreeing.

It’s about recognising that another person’s inner experience is real, even when it’s different from your own.

That recognition alone can change everything.

Stay safe, stay connected, take gentle care,

Louise x

If any of this resonates, or you’re curious about exploring your feelings in a space where they can be understood rather than explained away, you’re very welcome to get in touch. I offer therapy, supervision and tailored workshops that is different to traditional talking therapy, relational, trauma-informed, down to earth and human at its core. You can email me at louisemalyancounselling@gmail.com to ask questions, find out more about working together, or arrange an initial free conversation.

What Therapy Really Costs (And Why the Hour Myth Misses the Point)

There’s a common assumption about therapy that I hear again and again. Only today I read a post about the cost and laying into a therapist for their fee.

People often think therapists are earning an hourly fee, back-to-back, all day, every day. That we work 37.5 or 40 hours a week in paid sessions and go home comfortable, well-rested, and financially cushioned. To be quite frank, thats bull shit and simply not true!! If only! A girl can dream!!!

Jokes aside…..That isn’t how this work looks in reality.

So I want to gently pull back the curtain and explain what actually goes into therapy, not defensively, not to justify myself, but to educate and bring some reality to a picture that’s often wildly misunderstood.

When you pay for a therapy session, you are not paying for just that hour.

You are paying for the skills, the years of training, the ongoing learning, the infrastructure that keeps the work ethical and safe, and the unseen hours that support the moment you sit down and are held properly.

Before I ever see a client, I pay to exist professionally. I am registered with two professional membership bodies. I pay for insurance. I pay to be listed on three directories, not for vanity, (i rarely even get referrals from them, its all word of mouth) but so that if someone searches my name, they can see that my training is legitimate, my practice is accountable, and I am who I say I am.

I attend my own therapy and supervision as a non-negotiable ethical requirement. I have 90 minutes of clinical supervision twice a month, alongside weekly peer supervision. This is where client work is reflected on, safeguarded, and held responsibly. Supervision is paid for, and rightly so.

Alongside that, I read and train every single week as standard. Often, a client’s presentation means I will do additional, specific learning to make sure I’m working in the most informed and appropriate way for them. That learning costs both time and money.

Books, resources, creative materials, and therapeutic tools don’t magically appear. I’ve built a library and a studio of resources over years, and I am constantly adding to it so I can work flexibly, creatively, and safely with whatever a client brings.

Then there are the business realities.

I pay business rates. I pay for my website. I pay for the cost of holding sessions. I wash blankets daily and keep a constant fresh supply. I provide hot and cold drinks as standard. I pay the ICO. I pay an accountant. I keep up with regulatory changes, ethical updates, and best practice.

From every pound I earn, around 30p is immediately put aside for tax. That money is not mine. It also doesn’t cover holidays or sickness.

As a self‑employed therapist, if I don’t work, I don’t get paid, but all of the above still needs paying. Rent, bills, insurance, supervision, memberships, and life costs don’t pause if I’m ill.

This is why I also have to put money aside in case I’m unwell. There is no sick pay. No paid holiday. No pension contributions made for me. In previous employed roles, I had all of that. Self‑employment is not the financial freedom people often imagine.

Leaving unpaid slots isn’t a neutral choice. If I hold a session that isn’t paid for, I lose income while still covering all costs, which I just cannot afford to do, and someone else who may have needed that space may have been turned away. That’s why I ask for payment at booking, with a 24‑hour grace period. I believe that’s kind, fair, and realistic.

It’s also about accountability. People are far less likely to not attend when a session is paid for. If something is cancelled last minute, I use discretion and will move it within the same week if I genuinely can. If I can’t, I can’t, and that session remains paid for, with the next one needing payment as normal.

I work with complex trauma and very heavy material. That work matters deeply to me, but it also means I can only see a certain number of clients safely. Burnout isn’t an option, for me or for the people I work with.

I also choose to give back.

I heavily discount sessions for students, because that was once offered to me and I want to support. I offer discretionary free Rewind therapy for veterans. I provide concessions at significantly reduced rates for people who genuinely cannot afford extras in life. But if someone can afford things like holidays, takeaways, and non‑essential spending, therapy is charged at full price, because it is a priority, not a luxury add‑on. I trust that clients tell me the truth. I don’t ask for proof. I believe what they tell me and meet them where they are at. I only have so many sessions, so trust my clients. They know how I work, so if a situation changes, they can come to me & we can look at options. And yes, they do tell me when financial situations improve. Thats how valuable therapy is to them and how much they respect it. (I have amazing clients at whatever they pay.) I also will always endeavour to support clients who fall on difficult times. This work is so important. If I can, I will.

It cost me over £35,000 to do my basic initial training.

Four years of counselling training, and an additional two years where I studied and gained my counselling degree. Then in addition to my basic initial training I have completed numerous and robust Trauma trainings. Creative interventions. Group facilitation. Couples work. Clinical supervision. Inner child. Neurodivergence. Sexual violence. Children & young people. Personality disorders. Single‑session and solution‑focused qualifications. And the learning has never stopped, and never will.

I work hard. Bloody hard.

I am not coining it in.

Last year, I had unexpected time off in a year where I couldn’t afford a holiday. Then Christmas arrived, and I couldn’t work at capacity, its an enforced break!! I’m still doing my best to recover financially from that.

There are also the quieter costs: internet, phone, devices, secure systems, Zoom, software, all essential, all ongoing.

So when people ask about the cost of therapy, or assume therapists earn that hourly rate all day long, this is the fuller picture.

One session often carries hours of unseen work and continued learning behind it. Not because we’re forced to do it, but because we care. Because we’re passionate. Because we want to offer the very best we can to the person sitting in front of us.

I’ve won awards I barely talk about. That’s not what this is about. I dont need an award to tell me I am good at what I do. My work speaks for itself.

This work is about integrity. Presence. Skill. Safety. And offering something deeply considered and human.

Therapy is not expensive.

It is valuable.

And the people who do this work are not charging for an hour, they are holding a whole profession, a whole life of learning, and a whole lot of responsibility so you don’t have to do it alone.

This isn’t written to defend fees or justify worth.

It’s written to invite understanding, for clients, and for therapists alike.

For clients: your commitment to showing up, investing in yourself, and doing the work matters.

For therapists: the care, skill, restraint, boundaries, and invisible labour you bring every day matters.

Both sides of the room are doing something brave here.

Stay safe, stay connected, take gentle care,

Louise x

Disclaimer: The accompanying image is illustrative only. It is not taken from a specific client or identifiable individual. It reflects common themes seen across multiple public posts and is used solely for the purposes of education and discussion within this blog.

And the cake….a good old post Christmas yellow label!!!

The Side We Don’t See

We all have one.

The side we don’t show to the world.

As therapists and supervisors, we are often invited into that hidden place for others. We get the privilege of seeing the parts people carefully choose to share – the pain, the confusion, the shame, the hope. The pieces that rarely make it into everyday conversation.

Yet our own unseen side is often overlooked.

Today, while I was in my “workshop” a private space that very few people ever see, it struck me just how much of this work happens quietly, behind the scenes. Writing. Reading. Photographing. Packing. Making inventories. Creating. Reflecting. Learning. A space filled with books, craft supplies, half‑formed ideas, notes scribbled in margins, and a constant desire to do better for the people I work with.

From the outside, people often see one version of us: the therapist in the chair, the supervisor holding space, the facilitator running a workshop. That is the visible part. The polished part. The end result.

What they don’t usually see is everything that comes before and after.

They don’t see the hours spent reflecting on sessions, designing workshops, planning women’s circles, putting together creative kits, organising materials, creating and refining interventions, practising, researching, questioning, and trying again. They don’t see the time spent sitting with theory, cross‑checking ideas, wondering if something will truly land safely and usefully for the people who attend.

I spend countless hours in this space, surrounded by creativity, textbooks, admin, and a deep commitment to learning ,not because I have to, its because I care. Because I want what I offer to genuinely benefit others.

Therapy is not just a 50‑minute session.

A workshop is not just the hours people attend.

A 2.5‑hour workshop can easily carry 8–10 hours of preparation and reflection, especially when it’s being delivered for the first time. When you look at it that way, it often works out well below minimum wage.

A client session requires hours of research, training, reflection & supervision.

So why do it?

Because it’s a passion.

Because it changes lives.

Because it’s part of who I am.

This work doesn’t switch off when the session ends. It lives in the background of daily life, musing while washing up, reading research late at night, sourcing materials, trips to the post office, supervision, admin, ethical reflection. And that’s only the tip of the iceberg.

This isn’t just a job for many of us.

It’s woven into our lives.

So if you are a therapist, supervisor, facilitator, or practitioner who has been feeling unseen lately, I see you. I know how much you hold. How much you give. How much thought, care, and energy goes into work that others may only glimpse for an hour at a time.

You are important.

Your work matters.

And it is deeply valued.

Please remember to take time for yourself. To step back now and again and look at your work from another angle. To really notice how much you do, and how much of it often goes unacknowledged or taken for granted.

There is so much more to this work than what is visible.

And that unseen side deserves recognition too.

And perhaps this is an invitation.

For clients: to value the courage it takes to show up, to attend sessions, to sit with discomfort, to reflect on patterns, and to do the work of change alongside everything else life demands of you. Therapy isn’t something you simply attend, it’s something you actively participate in, often quietly, often bravely, often without applause. That matters.

For therapists, supervisors, and facilitators: to pause and really take in what you give. The emotional labour. The preparation. The thinking, creating, holding, repairing, and learning. The way you show up again and again, even when it’s hard. There is deep value in that, whether or not it is always named or recognised.

And for all of us: to take moments to feel proud. Proud of who you are. Proud of the work you do, in your profession, in your relationships, and in your inner world. Growth is not loud or showy most of the time. It’s steady. It’s intentional. It’s human.

The work you do, on yourself and for others, matters more than you may realise.

And none of this is ever just an hour.

Stay safe, stay connected, take gentle care,

Louise x

Access to Work ADHD Support: Real Help for Real Life (and Work)

If you have ADHD and you’re trying to work, grow a business, or simply keep your head above water, you might already know this truth:

You’re not lazy. You’re not broken. And you’re definitely not incapable.

But the way your brain works can make work feel exhausting, overwhelming, and at times impossible especially when you’re expected to function in systems that weren’t built with neurodivergent minds in mind.

This is where Access to Work can make a real difference.

What is Access to Work?

Access to Work is a UK government scheme that provides funding to support people with disabilities and neurodivergence, including ADHD, to stay in work, return to work, or set up and grow their own business.

For many people with ADHD, this funding can be used for a set number of sessions that include:

• Practical, solution-focused ADHD support

• Counselling support for emotional wellbeing

• Help with overwhelm, burnout, confidence, and regulation

• Support with work structures, routines, boundaries, and sustainability

This isn’t about fixing you.

It’s about supporting how you work.

Why ADHD Makes Work So Hard (Even When You’re Capable)

Many of the people I work with look like they’re coping just fine from the outside.

They’re running businesses.

Holding down jobs.

Showing up for clients, staff, or family.

Inside, it can feel very different.

Common struggles I hear every week include:

• Constant overwhelm and mental clutter

• Brilliant ideas but no clear way to start or finish

• Time blindness and missed deadlines

• Perfectionism mixed with procrastination

• Emotional overwhelm, shame, and self-criticism

• Difficulty prioritising or saying no

• Burnout from masking and pushing through

• Fear of failing or being “found out”

ADHD doesn’t just affect attention.

It affects emotions, self-worth, nervous system regulation, and confidence.

And when those aren’t supported, work becomes unsustainable.

How I Work (And Why It’s Different)

I offer Access to Work–funded support that combines practical, solution-focused work with counselling support, because ADHD is never just one or the other. I get when an idea or question comes in it can be hard to hold so whats app and email is available between sessions.

I’m ADHD myself. I run a successful business.

So I get it.

This means:

• No judgement

• No rigid systems that don’t fit real life

• No “just try harder” nonsense

Instead, we work with your brain, not against it.

What We Can Work On Together

Our sessions are shaped around you and what’s getting in the way right now.

This might include:

• Breaking work and business goals into realistic, achievable steps

• Creating structures that actually stick

• Managing overwhelm and emotional shutdown

• Working with motivation (not shaming yourself for losing it)

• Reducing burnout and people-pleasing

• Building confidence and self-trust

• Understanding your nervous system and stress responses

• Letting go of years of shame around “not being enough”

The focus is always on practical change, emotional safety, and long-term sustainability, not quick fixes that fall apart.

Counselling

and

Practical Support…. Not Either/Or

Many people with ADHD have years of:

• Being misunderstood

• Being criticised or corrected

• Feeling like they’re always behind

• Pushing themselves past breaking point

That takes a toll.

Access to Work allows space for both:

• Practical support for work and productivity

• Counselling support for confidence, regulation, trauma, and self-worth

Because you don’t leave your emotions at the door when you sit down to work.

Who This Support Is For

This work is particularly helpful if you:

• Have ADHD (diagnosed or self-identified)

• Are employed, self-employed, or setting up a business

• Feel overwhelmed, stuck, or burnt out

• Want support that is flexible, human, and realistic

• Have Access to Work funding approved (or are applying)

Sessions are available online, and I meet you where you are, literally and emotionally.

You Don’t Have to Keep Doing This Alone

ADHD can make you feel like the problem.

You’re not.

The problem is unsupported neurodivergence in systems that demand consistency, regulation, and performance without care.

Access to Work exists because support matters.

And the right support can change everything.

Get in Touch

If you’d like to explore working together using Access to Work funding, you’re very welcome to reach out.

📧 louisemalyancounselling@gmail.com

🌐 www.wildfirecounsellingtherapy.co.uk

I offer a free, no-obligation introductory chat, just to see if we’re the right fit.

Down to earth. Flexible. Real.

Support that works with you, not against you.

Take gentle care

Louise

Wildfire Counselling & Therapy

Rewind Therapy: When Trauma Feels Stuck and Keeps Replaying

Trauma has a way of refusing to stay in the past.

For many people, it shows up as flashbacks, intrusive images, nightmares, sudden fear responses, or a body that reacts before the mind has a chance to catch up. You might know you’re safe now, but your nervous system hasn’t got the message.

Rewind Therapy is a trauma-focused approach designed to help with exactly that.

It doesn’t require you to talk through every detail of what happened. It doesn’t involve reliving the trauma. Instead, it works gently with how the brain has stored the memory, helping it move from something that feels constantly present to something that feels safely in the past.

For many people, this can be genuinely life-changing.

The first Rewind session is longer, usually around 2 to 3 hours, because this work needs time, care and flexibility. We take breaks. You can move around. There are drinks, snacks, moments to pause, and space to breathe. This isn’t rushed work, and it’s never forced.

Rewind Therapy is usually completed in a single session, with a follow-up session to check in, support integration, and see how things have settled. While no therapy can ever be guaranteed to be 100% effective for everyone, Rewind Therapy has a strong evidence base and fantastic results for many people living with trauma.

It can help with:

PTSD and C-PTSD

single-incident trauma

ongoing or repeated trauma

recurring flashbacks or intrusive memories

“stuck” trauma that hasn’t shifted with other approaches

You don’t need to have seen me before to access Rewind Therapy. It can be a standalone piece of work, or something we integrate into ongoing therapy, whatever feels right for you.

Sessions are offered face-to-face or online, and we’ll always work at your pace, with your consent, and with safety at the centre.

Rewind Therapy isn’t about erasing what happened. It’s about helping your nervous system stand down, so the past stops crashing into the present, and life can start to feel lighter, calmer and more manageable again.

Take gentle care

Lou

Supervision That Sees the Whole You, Not Just the Work You Do

Supervision isn’t just about cases, contracts and ethics.

It’s about you, the person doing the work, carrying the stories, making the decisions and holding the responsibility.

I offer supervision that is down to earth, collaborative and human. A space where you don’t have to perform, impress or arrive with everything neatly packaged. You can bring the messy thoughts, the uncertainty, the emotional weight, and the questions you’re still forming.

I work creatively, but not in a “you must do this” kind of way. Creativity in supervision simply means adapting the space to suit how you think, learn and reflect best. Sometimes that looks like talking things through. Sometimes it’s noticing patterns, using metaphor, mapping things out, or exploring something differently when words feel stuck. It’s about finding what supports your growth, not forcing a model that doesn’t fit.

Supervision with me holds the whole picture:

your clients, your ethical responsibilities, your emotional wellbeing, and your business or practice. We can explore boundaries, confidence, imposter feelings, burnout, workload, and the realities of being self-employed or working within systems that don’t always support you.

I work with counsellors, therapists and other helping professionals who need a safe, discreet space to reflect and be supported. Confidentiality is essential. What you bring to supervision stays there.

Sessions are offered as 60 or 90 minutes, online, in person, or as a blend. I also offer ongoing support between sessions via calls, email and WhatsApp, because practice doesn’t only happen inside the hour.

If you’re curious about working together, I offer a free 20-minute introductory session. No pressure, no obligation, just a chance to see if I’m the right fit for you and your work.

Supervision should feel supportive, steadying and strengthening, not intimidating. And you don’t have to do this work alone.

Take gentle care

Louise

Creative Supervision: Not About Art, But About Doing Things Differently

Supervision is often described as a requirement, a tick box, or something you should do to stay ethical and safe in practice. And while all of that matters, supervision is also so much more than that.

At its heart, supervision is a space to pause. To step out of the intensity of client work and have somewhere to reflect, question, process and think out loud without judgement. It’s where ethical practice, learning and growth meet real human experience. And where you, as a practitioner, get to be supported too.

Creative supervision doesn’t mean you need to be “creative”, artistic or confident with materials. It’s not about making art or producing anything at all. Creativity in supervision is simply about doing things differently, in ways that suit you as an individual, your way of thinking, and the work you’re holding.

For some people, creativity looks like talking things through in a relaxed, conversational way. For others, it might involve using metaphor, noticing patterns, mapping things out, or exploring what’s stuck when words feel clumsy or circular. It can include reflecting on books, music, films, current affairs, or even moments from everyday life that connect to the work. Sometimes it means sitting with uncertainty rather than rushing to answers.

Creative supervision adapts to the person in the room. Because no two practitioners work the same way, think the same way, or need the same kind of support.

Supervision with me is a collaborative, supportive partnership. It’s not about being told what to do or feeling scrutinised. It’s about creating a safe, discreet space where you can bring the real stuff, the questions, the doubts, the ethical dilemmas, the emotional weight, and the ideas you’re still shaping.

I work with counsellors, therapists and other helping professionals, anyone whose role involves holding people, making complex decisions, and needing somewhere to reflect safely. Confidentiality and discretion are essential. What you bring to supervision stays there. This is not content for social media, and it’s not something that leaves the room.

Sessions are offered as 60 or 90 minutes, depending on what feels most supportive for your work. I offer supervision online, in person, or as a blend of both. I also provide ongoing support between sessions, with unlimited calls, emails and WhatsApp messages, because practice doesn’t only happen neatly inside a booked hour.

Alongside clinical reflection, I also support practice and business growth, not in a prescriptive, one-size-fits-all way, but in a way that helps you grow into the kind of work, practice or service you want to build. Something sustainable, ethical and aligned with who you are.

I offer a limited number of student concessions, because support early in practice matters.

Supervision isn’t about being perfect. It’s about being thoughtful, reflective and supported. Creative supervision simply makes room for you to arrive as you are, and to grow from there.

If you’d like to find out more, drop me a message or email and we can have an informal chat, no pressure, I am a true believer in trusting your gut,

Take gentle care

Louise

“Because sometimes, words are not enough”

When the Child Part Is Driving the Adult

There’s a side of a communication pattern that’s uncomfortable to look at, especially if you’re the one living inside it.

Not the people “on the receiving end”.

The person doing it.

The one who explodes.

The one who says things they don’t truly mean.

The one who feels justified in the moment, then confused, ashamed, or misunderstood afterwards.

The one who genuinely believes the world is against them.

This isn’t about being cruel.

It’s about being activated.

When early emotional needs weren’t met, not consistently, not safely, not reliably, the nervous system doesn’t grow out of that hunger. It carries it forward.

So as an adult, when something touches that original wound, the response doesn’t come from your adult self.

It comes from the child who was:

• ignored

• dismissed

• blamed

• abandoned emotionally or physically

• expected to cope alone

• loved conditionally

• punished for having needs

That child doesn’t know how to ask.

They only know how to react.

So when a partner sets a boundary, disagrees, needs space, or simply can’t meet an emotional demand, it doesn’t feel like a normal adult interaction.

It feels like:

• rejection

• abandonment

• betrayal

• proof you don’t matter

And that’s when the defence kicks in.

The explosion

The words come out sharp.

Accusations fly.

Old scores get dragged in.

The aim isn’t connection, it’s relief.

Sometimes there’s a childlike urge to hurt the other person back.

Not because you want to destroy them, but because pain wants company.

Afterwards, many people say:

“I didn’t mean it.”

“That’s not how I really feel.”

“I was just angry.”

“They shouldn’t take it so seriously.”

However, impact doesn’t disappear just because intention wasn’t there.

And this is where relationships fracture.

Why boundaries feel unbearable

For someone with unmet childhood needs, boundaries don’t feel neutral.

They feel cruel.

A boundary sounds like:

“You’re on your own.”

“You don’t matter.”

“Your needs are too much.”

“You’re being left again.”

So instead of hearing:

“I need space”

“I can’t do that”

“This isn’t okay for me”

The nervous system hears:

“You are not loved.”

And the response is protection defensiveness, blame, control, withdrawal, or attack.

How this shows up with your children

This is where it gets even more tangled.

Many people with this wound over-identify with their children.

They protect fiercely.

They excuse behaviour.

They struggle to tolerate anyone else setting limits with their child.

Because when someone corrects the child, the adult’s own inner child feels criticised.

So it becomes:

“My child is being attacked”

“my parenting is being attacked”

“you are jealous of my child”

rather than

“My child is being guided.”

“My partner has needs”

“My partner is expressing themself”

Boundaries feel like rejection again.

Over time, this can lead to:

• children who struggle with limits

• children who control the emotional climate

• children who learn to play adults against each other

• fractures in blended families

• resentment, exhaustion, and confusion in partners

• Children who learn to manipulate

• Children who struggle to maintain friendships & relationships

• Children unable to take accountability- its always someone else’s fault

• Children who cannot empathise

None of this comes from bad intentions.

It comes from unresolved pain driving the wheel.

The cost….

to you and to others

Living like this is exhausting.

Always scanning for threat.

Always defending.

Always feeling misunderstood.

Always waiting for people to finally prove they care “enough”.

Feeling that everyone else is the problem.

Trying to force a partner to change to meet your needs.

Relationships don’t feel safe, they feel high stakes.

And the tragic part?

No partner, friend, or child can ever meet the need your inner child is carrying.

That’s not because they’re failing.

It’s because that need belongs to the past.

What healing actually looks like

Healing doesn’t mean never being triggered.

It means recognising who is reacting.

It means learning to pause long enough to ask:

“How old does this part of me feel right now?”

It means separating:

• adult needs from child wounds

• boundaries from abandonment

• disagreement from rejection

It means learning that:

Feeling hurt ≠ being harmed

Feeling disappointed ≠ being unloved

And most importantly:

It means taking responsibility without drowning in shame.

You can understand where your reactions come from and still own their impact.

Why therapy helps, when it’s done properly

This work isn’t about blame.

It’s about integration.

In therapy, we don’t silence the child part.

We listen, without letting it run the show.

We build:

• emotional regulation

• tolerance for boundaries

• the ability to hold two perspectives at once

• repair instead of rupture

• safety inside, not demanded outside

So relationships stop feeling like battlegrounds.

And start feeling like places you can breathe.

If this felt uncomfortably familiar

That doesn’t make you bad.

It makes you human,

with old wounds still asking to be seen.

You are not broken.

But you might be bleeding into places that matter.

And that can change.

Relationships can heal & be beautiful.

We can feel loved, respected and committed.

We can communicate without triggers.

I work with this exact dynamic, gently, honestly, and without judgement.

I work with the person behind the reaction, not a diagnosis.

🌐 www.wildfirecounsellingtherapy.co.uk

📧 louisemalyancounselling@gmail.com

Free, no-obligation intro chat just to see if we’re the right fit.

Awareness is not an accusation.

It’s an invitation.

Glue, Glitter & Ghosts: Reclaiming Your Creativity

Have you ever told yourself you’re not creative? That play, experimenting, or making something just isn’t for you? I get it. I’ve been there myself, and so have so many of the people I work with.

But here’s the thing, creativity isn’t about art, skill, or producing something that looks perfect. Creativity is about expression. It’s about reconnecting with joy, curiosity, and the freedom to play. And sometimes, it’s about healing the wounds that stopped us from creating in the first place.

That’s why I created Glue, Glitter & Ghosts, a 3.5-hour online creative therapy workshop designed to gently explore the story behind why we stopped expressing ourselves. Together, we’ll trace the quiet, often unnoticed moments where our inner artist, storyteller, or maker was silenced.

What Happens in the Workshop

In a small, safe group online, we’ll:

• Explore your creative wounding timeline, looking at the moments that shaped your self-beliefs about creativity

• Engage in hands-on creative exercises, from resin play to writing prompts, storytelling, and more

• Reflect and discuss, giving space to reframe old stories and reclaim your permission to play

• Build confidence, resilience, and self-expression, reconnecting with joy in the process

This isn’t about making “pretty things”….. although there’ll be plenty of opportunity for that if you want it. It’s about learning to give yourself permission to play, to experiment, and to heal the ghosts left by past experiences that made you feel you weren’t good enough.

My Own Experience

I’ve been exploring creativity more intentionally myself recently, especially during challenging times, and I’ve been blown away by how healing it can be. A simple set of pens, paper, and watercolours became a lifeline for me, a way to express what I couldn’t put into words. It reminded me that creativity isn’t a luxury; it’s essential for our wellbeing.

I’ve seen this play out with clients and colleagues too. When we engage with our own creativity, we grow. Confidence, self-awareness, and resilience all follow, and it ripples outwards, helping us connect more deeply with ourselves and with others.

What You’ll Take Away

By the end of the workshop, you’ll have:

• Explored and begun to heal the blocks that silenced your creativity

• Reclaimed permission to play, experiment, and express yourself freely

• Created something meaningful, reflecting your own journey

• A renewed sense of confidence and curiosity to carry forward into daily life

Practical Details

• When: Sunday 19th October, 10am–1.30pm

• Where: Online via Zoom

• Cost: Intro price £55 including full resin kit delivered to your door (UK only) this price is an introductory one only!

• Materials: Resin, curing lamp, moulds, pigments, tools, and extras to spark creativity

No experience is needed, just a willingness to explore. This is your chance to make a mess, make meaning, and maybe meet a part of yourself you haven’t seen in a while.

Spaces are small to keep the group supportive and safe, and applications are required to maintain emotional safety.

✨ Creativity isn’t about being perfect, it’s about reclaiming your story. Glue, Glitter & Ghosts is a space to do just that.

📧 To book your spot or ask questions: louisemalyancounselling@gmail.com

Stay safe, stay connected & take gentle care

Louise ❤️‍🩹

Creativity: More Than Art A Pathway to Healing

Over this past year, especially these past few weeks, I’ve been navigating a process that’s far from over. The grief I carry isn’t something I’ll ever “get over” I know it will live with me forever, in different ways, in ebbs and flows. Life also comes with challenges, and that’s part of the reason I felt compelled to write this.

Throughout this time, I’ve been leaning into creativity, and it has been unexpectedly powerful. Even in the hardest moments, a simple bag I had with me at the hospital of pens, paper, watercolours, and a set of cards & other random bits became my lifeline. It helped me express emotions I couldn’t put into words, offered distraction when I needed it, and allowed me to create space for my own healing.

Creativity as a Healing Force

Unused creativity doesn’t just sit quietly inside us. As Brené Brown says, “Unused creativity is not benign. It metastasises. It turns into grief, rage, judgment, sorrow, shame.” I know this to be true from my own experience, when I ignore the urge to create, I feel it in my body, my mind, my spirit.

In therapy, creativity can offer something words alone cannot. A simple act of making, with colour, texture, or story, can bypass defences, touch something deeper, and give shape to feelings that have been buried for too long.

Letting Go of Misconceptions

For a long time, I thought creativity in therapy meant art therapy, and I shied away from it. I didn’t feel qualified. I worried I’d ask someone to “make art” and they’d resist. If you’d asked me five years ago, I’d have said, “That’s not for me.”

However, discovering creative therapy changed everything. My therapist gave me a gift that I will be forever grateful for. It has truly been life changing. Creativity is so much broader, it can be found in storytelling, metaphor, movement, collage, even arranging words on a page. It’s not about producing something beautiful or worthy of display. It’s about creating meaning, and that is life-changing.

Growing as a Therapist

When I gave myself permission to play and create, I noticed something shift inside me. My confidence grew. I found new ways to connect, to listen, to hold space. I learned to trust the process, not worry about the product.

Exploring my own creativity has helped me show up with more presence and openness in the therapy room. It’s allowed me to invite clients into different ways of exploring their inner worlds, ways that don’t rely solely on words, which can sometimes feel heavy, limiting, or unreachable.

And I’ve seen it ripple outwards. In peers and colleagues, when they embrace creativity, there’s curiosity, lightness, and willingness to explore that wasn’t there before. It’s powerful to witness, and it reinforces for me why creativity matters so much.

My Own Process

During this particularly challenging time, creativity has been my anchor. Clutching that bag of pens, paper, watercolours, and cards felt like holding a lifeline. It allowed me to distract, express, and process without the need for words.

Whether through writing workshops, experimenting with materials, or simply giving myself permission to play, creativity has opened space for my own healing. It reminded me that creativity isn’t a luxury, for me it’s essential.

Why I Want to Share It

Seeing the change in myself, in my clients, and even in family, friends, peers and colleagues has strengthened my belief in the power of creativity. It helps us heal, grow, and find confidence where we might have felt doubt. And that’s why I want to share it with others, because I’ve witnessed the difference it can make. Creativity reconnects us to parts of ourselves that have been silenced or shut down, and that reconnection is where healing begins.

An Invitation to Reconsider

So perhaps creativity isn’t something to fear or something only for “artists.” Maybe it’s something to reclaim, not as art, not as performance, but as a birthright, a natural part of being human.

What might happen if you allowed yourself to explore your creativity, not as an artist, but as a person seeking healing, joy, and self-discovery?

It’s a question I continue to sit with, and one I’d love for you to consider too.

Sometimes words alone are not enough.

Stay safe, stay connected & take gentle care

Louise

Rewind Therapy A Gentle, Transformative Approach to Trauma

Rewind Therapy

A Gentle, Transformative Approach to Trauma

Over the past few weeks, I’ve had quite a few enquiries after a Facebook post I put on my socials (ok, let’s be honest – more than a few!) about Rewind Therapy. What is it? How does it work? Why do I offer it?

If you're curious, you're not alone – so I thought I'd share a little more here, especially if you're exploring new ways to work through trauma that feel safe, grounded, and manageable.

What is Rewind Therapy?

Rewind Therapy is a trauma-focused approach I offer as part of my work with clients experiencing Trauma, PTSD and complex PTSD. And let me be really clear here, I only offer work I believe in. I’ve experienced Rewind Therapy both personally and professionally, and I’ve seen the shifts it can bring. Real, lasting changes.

What makes Rewind different is how gentle and non-invasive it is. You don’t have to talk through the details of what happened. You don’t have to relive or retell your trauma. For so many of the people I work with, that’s a massive relief.

How does it work?

Rewind gives you the opportunity to revisit traumatic memories in a safe, dissociative way. It gently allows your nervous system to process and let go of what’s been stuck, the flashbacks, the panic, the emotional overwhelm, the constant feeling of threat. The body stops sounding the alarm for something that’s no longer happening.

It’s not magic. But when that shift happens, it can feel pretty magical.

And just to clear this up, as I get asked it a lot, Rewind is not hypnosis, and it’s not hypnotherapy. It’s a standalone therapeutic approach grounded in neuroscience, delivered in a calm, compassionate way.

What does the research say?

If you like to know the evidence behind a therapy (and many of us do), the research into Rewind is really promising.

A 2023 study published in the International Journal of Environmental Research and Public Health looked at the impact of Rewind Therapy on veterans and emergency workers, people with long-standing, complex trauma. After just two to three sessions, the participants showed a clinically significant reduction in PTSD symptoms, and many of them still felt better six months later.

The study authors shared:

“The Rewind Technique was associated with a significant decrease in PTSD scores and demonstrated sustained symptom reduction over time.”
— Hooper & Murphy (2023)

It’s incredibly encouraging. You can read the full article here https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC11921860/

Finding the right therapist matters most

No matter how powerful a technique is, what matters most is that you feel safe and supported with the person you’re working with.

I know what it’s like to feel like your story is too much. To worry that therapy might make it worse. To feel like talking just opens up old wounds. That’s why I offer something different.

I don’t believe in one-size-fits-all therapy. I work creatively and compassionately, with people who want to heal but need to do it in a way that feels safe and right for them.

If you’re wondering whether Rewind Therapy, or anything else I offer, might be a good fit for you, I’m always happy to have a no-pressure chat. Just a conversation to see if it feels right.

Take gentle care,

Louise ❤️‍🩹
Sometimes words are not enough & neither is traditional therapy. So I do things differently – so you can live differently.

📧 louisemalyancounselling@gmail.com
🌍 www.wildfirecounsellingtherapy.co.uk

More Play Required

More Play Required: Reflections from July’s Creative Counsellors page by page workshop

By Louise Malyan / Integrative Counsellor Psychotherapist / Creative Counsellor Ambassador

July’s Creative Counsellors Book Club was something really special. It was one of those evenings where the room fills with warmth, reflection, creativity, and the gentle magic that happens when counsellors come together with openness and curiosity.

Our theme for July was:
Wellbeing, Identity & Finding Ourselves Again.

We explored the tender places where we may have drifted from parts of ourselves — the parts that once sparked joy before the roles, responsibilities, and emotional labour of this work quietly reshaped our identity. As counsellors, we hold so much for others… but sometimes, we forget to hold ourselves in the same way.

✍️ A Creative Journey Through Time

We began with a reflective timeline:

• What came before — who we were before the weight of work, before burnout, before the boundaries blurred.

• Where we are now — what still feels alive, and what might feel a little forgotten.

• Where we want to be — not in a goal-driven sense, but in a soulful, joy-led way.

• And the brushstrokes in between — the small, subtle shifts that got us here.

📚 Books, Stories, and Shared Meaning

As always, books grounded our session. Memoirs, fiction, and therapeutic texts that reminded us of who we are beyond the therapy room — books that helped us feel, remember, and return. Stories that held our hands when we couldn’t hold our own. And yes, I have a few newbies to add to my ever growing collection!

🎒 A Suitcase Full of Joy

One of my favourite moments? When we packed a metaphorical suitcase full of the things that once brought us joy.
various joys came up, maybe music or a memory. For others, colours, hobbies, silly childhood snacks, or the feeling of being barefoot in the garden.

We used the brilliant Badass Affirmation Cards and Reflective Endings Cards to guide and prompt this exploration — both of which I highly recommend for clients and practitioners looking to bring more creativity and depth into their sessions.

🧡 Grab your own set of Badass Affirmation Cards (affiliate link – thank you for supporting my work!)
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🧳 Explore the beautifully designed Reflective Endings Cards
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💫 The Takeaway?

That there is beauty in us, even when it feels distant. And often, we find it not in logic, theory, or even words… but in unexpected items, silly memories, and play.

As soon as we found that moment of joy, we knew.
We remembered who we were.
We gave ourselves permission to go there.

And that’s the real work sometimes — giving ourselves permission to be fully human. Messy. Playful. Free.

🖌️ So What Now?

More play.
More joy.
More of doing things differently.

Whether you're a counsellor, creative, or someone who feels a little lost at the moment — maybe this is your reminder to pack your own suitcase. To revisit the parts of you that once brought life, laughter, and ease.

Because healing doesn’t have to be heavy.
Sometimes, it looks like colour.
Sometimes, it looks like connection.
Sometimes, it starts with a scribble on a page.

You can learn more about me and my approach here:

🔗 www.wildfirecounsellingtherapy.co.uk
📧 louisemalyancounselling@gmail.com

Let’s do therapy — and life — a little differently.
Because more play is always a good idea.

With warmth,
Louise x

Father’s Day and the Weight of Inner Child Wounds: You’re Not Alone

For many people, Father’s Day is not a celebration.

It’s not breakfast in bed, hugs from little ones, or reminiscing over warm memories.
It’s a day that quietly aches. That stings. That reminds us of the absence, the pain, or the complexity of a father figure who may have been hurtful, unavailable, emotionally distant — or not there at all.

You’re not being dramatic.
You’re not being over-sensitive.
And you are certainly not alone.

The Hidden Grief Behind the Smiles

Shops fill up with cards saying “Best Dad Ever.”
Social media floods with posts about incredible dads and treasured childhood memories.
And if this doesn’t match your experience, it can leave you feeling like something’s wrong with you.

Maybe you…

• Never had a relationship with your father.

• Felt unseen, unprotected, or even harmed by him.

• Grew up walking on eggshells around his anger or silence.

• Are grieving the father you wish you had.

• Are trying to show up as a parent yourself, but are exhausted and overwhelmed by everything Father’s Day stirs up.

Whatever your story is — I see you.

You might feel a mixture of sadness, envy, shame, anger, fear… even numbness.
Those feelings are not wrong.
They’re not too much.
They’re the echoes of your inner child — the part of you that never got to feel safe, cherished, or validated by a parent.
And days like this can bring all that flooding to the surface.

How Trauma Shows Up in Adulthood

Inner child wounds don’t just disappear because we’ve grown up.

They show up in how we relate to others.
In the shame we feel for not being “enough.”
In the way we struggle to trust or to set boundaries.
In the burnout from constantly trying to keep it all together.

Maybe today, you feel like curling up and hiding from the world.
Maybe you’re trying to hold it together for your kids, your partner, your job — when inside, you feel broken or enraged or completely alone.

This kind of emotional pain is real.
And you don’t have to carry it on your own.

This Is Where Therapy Comes In

I offer a safe, compassionate, down-to-earth space where you can:

• Gently explore the pain you’ve been carrying

• Connect with and begin to heal your inner child

• Understand your triggers and patterns in relationships

• Release shame and start rebuilding self-worth

• Learn to soothe your nervous system and lessen anxiety, anger, or burnout

• Discover how to be more present — for yourself and for those you love

You don’t need to pretend it’s all okay.
You don’t need to know where to begin.
You just need to show up as you are — and we’ll go at your pace.

I know how painful it can be to feel like you’re carrying something no one else understands.
And I also know the power of being truly seen by someone who gets it.

You’re not broken. You’ve been wounded.

And wounds can heal — with the right care, time, and connection.

If this resonates, I invite you to get in touch.
I offer a free, no-obligation introductory video call so we can meet each other, and you can see if I feel like the right fit for you.

📧 louisemalyancounselling@gmail.com
🌐 www.wildfirecounsellingtherapy.co.uk

Take gentle care of yourself today.
Even if it’s just putting both feet on the floor and breathing.
You matter — even if it doesn’t always feel that way.

You are allowed to just exist and still be worthy.

When No One Believed You

And Why It Matters So Much That Someone Finally Does….

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There’s a particular kind of pain that lingers long after the trauma itself.
It’s the pain of not being believed.

I see it every day in my work — in the hesitant words, the trembling voices, the eyes that flicker to the floor when the story starts to surface.
Clients often come to me carrying not just the weight of what happened to them, but also the heavy, invisible burden of what happened afterwards:
being dismissed, denied, blamed, silenced.

And that disbelief can sometimes hurt just as much as the trauma itself.

The Hidden Wound of Disbelief

When you experience abuse, violence, neglect or betrayal — it turns your world upside down.
But when you tell someone, and they don’t believe you, it can break something even deeper.

You start to question your reality.
Was it really that bad?
Did it actually happen like I remember?
Maybe it’s my fault?
Maybe I misunderstood?

When the people you trust — family, partners, friends, professionals — reject your truth, it can leave you stranded in your pain.
Isolated.
Ashamed.
Disconnected from your own story.

This disbelief teaches you something dangerous: that your voice doesn’t matter.
That your feelings are wrong.
That your experience is too messy, too inconvenient, too uncomfortable for the world to hold.

And so, many survivors stay silent.
Or tell a carefully edited, watered-down version of the truth.
Or bury it so deep inside that even they start to forget it happened.

But the body remembers.
The nervous system remembers.
The heart remembers.
Even if no one else did.

I Know What That Feels Like

Part of why this matters so much to me as a therapist is because I know this feeling personally.
I know what it’s like to have something painful, real, and deeply affecting happen — and then to have people look away.
To have your words doubted.
To be made to feel like you’re overreacting, too sensitive, attention-seeking.

I know the kind of loneliness that leaves.
The kind that eats away at your sense of safety in the world, and in yourself.

And that’s why, when you walk into my room,
whether you whisper it,
shout it,
write it down,
or just let it hang unspoken in the space between us —
I believe you.

Why Believing Matters in Healing

Healing from trauma isn’t just about what happened.
It’s also about everything that happened next.
The people who stayed silent.
The ones who denied it.
The systems that failed you.
The moments you swallowed your truth just to survive.

And one of the first steps to healing is having someone genuinely witness your pain, without judgment or disbelief.

To be believed is to be seen.
To be heard.
To be validated.
To be safe.

It allows you to stop fighting yourself.
It begins to loosen the grip of shame.
It makes space for grief, anger, mourning, remembering, and eventually — for reclaiming your life on your terms.

Believing someone isn’t just a kind gesture — it’s an act of repair.
A restoration of dignity.
A sacred promise:
"Your pain is real. You are not making this up. What happened to you mattered. And you matter."

Walking Alongside You

It is one of the deepest privileges of my life to sit beside people as they untangle these wounds.
To hear what no one else wanted to hear.
To hold what others pushed away.
To watch someone move from barely being able to whisper what happened — to standing taller in their truth.

I won’t rush you.
I won’t ask you for details you aren’t ready to share.
I won’t turn away from the uncomfortable parts.

I will stay with you in the thick of it.
And when you doubt yourself, I’ll remind you:
I believe you.
I always will.

Because you deserve to finally be believed.

And it’s not too late.

Take gentle care

Louise x

I Believe You

By Louise Malyan

There are words

I wish you had heard

a long, long time ago.

I believe you.

Not because you need to prove it.

Not because you owe me the details.

Not because you have to relive it here in this room.

I believe you

because your body remembers.

Because your eyes say what your mouth sometimes cannot.

Because the silence between your words

is heavy enough to fill the whole room.

I believe you

when you tell me what they did,

or when you can't.

When you try to explain,

then backtrack,

then apologise for taking up space.

I believe you when your voice shakes.

I believe you when you go quiet.

I believe you when you laugh it off

like it was nothing,

and especially when it was everything.

I believe you

because I know what it costs

to carry a story no one wanted to hear.

To be told

it wasn’t that bad.

That you made it up.

That it didn’t happen like you remember.

That you’re too sensitive.

Too dramatic.

Too much.

And yet —

here you are.

I want you to know

it is the deepest, quietest privilege

to hold these truths with you.

Not to take them,

but to help you lay them down,

bit by bit,

piece by piece,

until they feel less like chains

and more like chapters.

This is not easy work.

You have carried this

for far too long.

In your bones,

in your skin,

in the way you flinch at kindness,

or question your worth.

And still —

you keep showing up.

I am not here to judge you.

Not now,

not ever.

I am here to believe you,

to hold space

for all the parts of your story

that were once dismissed,

denied,

and buried.

You deserve that.

You always did.

And if no one told you before —

if no one stayed,

or softened,

or simply said,

“I believe you”

without conditions —

know that I will.

In this space,

in this work we do together,

your truth matters.

You matter.

And it is my greatest honour

to walk beside you

as you begin

to reclaim what was taken,

to grieve what was stolen,

and to remember

who you were

before the world

tried to silence you.

I believe you.

I always will.

Crisis Lines?

Crisis Lines Vs Counselling

Knowing Where to Turn When You’re Struggling

When you’re struggling mentally or emotionally, it can be hard to know what kind of support you need — or where to find it. If life feels overwhelming, or if you’re facing thoughts or feelings that feel frightening or hard to cope with, please know this: you are not alone, and there is help available.

It’s important to understand the difference between a crisis line and counselling, and to know there are other support options like NHS 111, GPs, and A&E when urgent mental health help is needed.

What is a Crisis Line?

Crisis lines are there for those moments when you need support right now. They’re free, confidential, and available 24/7. You don’t have to be in immediate danger to call — if you’re feeling panicked, hopeless, afraid, or just need someone to talk to, they’ll be there to listen without judgment and help you stay safe.

These services don’t offer ongoing therapy, but they can make all the difference in a moment of crisis — helping you breathe, ground, and know that someone cares.

UK Crisis Services You Can Contact Anytime

Samaritans
Call: 116 123 (free, 24/7)
Website: www.samaritans.org
A safe, confidential place to talk about anything that’s troubling you — day or night.

SHOUT (Text Support)
Text: SHOUT to 85258 (free, 24/7)
Website: www.giveusashout.org
Free, confidential text support in moments of crisis or distress. You’ll be supported by a trained volunteer via text message.

Papyrus HOPELINEUK (For young people or those supporting them)
Call: 0800 068 41 41
Text: 07860 039967
Website: www.papyrus-uk.org
Specialist suicide prevention support for under-35s, or anyone concerned about a young person.

Childline (For children and young people up to age 19)
Call: 0800 1111 (free, 24/7)
Website: www.childline.org.uk
A safe, confidential space for young people to talk about anything — anxiety, bullying, abuse, family issues, or low mood.

The Mix (For young people under 25)
Call: 0808 808 4994 (3pm–midnight)
Text: THEMIX to 85258 for crisis support
Website: www.themix.org.uk
Support for anything from mental health and self-harm to housing, relationships, or drug use — via phone, text, and online chat.

Rape Crisis England & Wales
Call: 0808 500 2222 (free, 24/7)
Website: www.rapecrisis.org.uk
Confidential support for anyone who has experienced rape, sexual abuse, or sexual violence — recently or in the past. Offers emotional support, practical advice, and help accessing local services.

National Domestic Abuse Helpline (Refuge)
Call: 0808 2000 247 (free, 24/7)
Website: www.nationaldahelpline.org.uk
For anyone experiencing domestic abuse — emotional, physical, sexual, financial, or coercive. Offers support, advice, and practical help.

Alcoholics Anonymous (AA)
Call: 0800 9177 650
Website: www.alcoholics-anonymous.org.uk
Speak to someone who understands, find local meetings, and begin your recovery journey.

Emergency Services
Call: 999
If you or someone else is in immediate danger, please call 999.

Other NHS Mental Health Options

NHS 111 – Option 2 (Mental Health Support)
Call: 111 (free, 24/7)
If you’re in mental health distress but unsure whether it’s an emergency, call 111 and press Option 2. You’ll be connected to your local mental health crisis team, who can provide advice, support, and next steps.

Your GP (Doctor)
If you’re feeling low, anxious, or overwhelmed, your GP can help with initial support, signposting, referrals to NHS counselling, or medication. It’s a good first step if you’re not in crisis but know something’s not right.

A&E (Accident & Emergency)
If you’re at serious risk of harm or experiencing a severe mental health crisis, you can go to your nearest A&E department. Mental health emergencies are just as important as physical ones — and you deserve the same care.

How is Counselling Different?

Crisis lines are there to get you through the worst moments — to keep you safe when it all feels too much. Counselling is where we begin to make sense of those moments.

In counselling, we gently explore the root causes of your struggles — whether that’s trauma, addiction, anxiety, low self-worth, or relationship difficulties. It’s a safe, non-judgmental space to understand yourself more deeply, process past pain, and move forward.

I offer down-to-earth, trauma-informed counselling online or in-person (Brenchley, near Tunbridge Wells and Tonbridge). You don’t need to have the words — we can work creatively too, using art, story, and nature to help you reconnect and feel more like you.

Which Support is Right for You?

• If you’re in immediate crisis — reach out to a crisis service, call 111 (option 2), or go to A&E.

• If you want to begin your healing journey — counselling could be the next step toward feeling lighter, more connected, and more in control of your life.

You Deserve Support

I offer a free, no-pressure introductory video call to see if counselling feels right for you. You can reach out via:

Email: louisemalyancounselling@gmail.com
Website: www.wildfirecounsellingtherapy.co.uk

You don’t have to face this alone. Whether you need help now, or you're ready to begin the deeper work of healing — support is here, and you are worthy of receiving it.

Louise x

That deep loneliness isn't always about being alone...

It's the feeling of being surrounded by people and still feeling invisible. Of going through the motions—smiling, chatting, showing up—while inside, you’re wondering if anyone actually sees you. Really sees you. The real you. Not just the role you play, the mask you wear, or the version of you that keeps the peace.

It's a unique ache to feel misunderstood—to sense that people are looking right past the parts of you that matter most. And in that space, it’s easy to start questioning yourself. Should I change? Should I shrink myself down to fit in better? Should I hide the parts that feel too much?

But here’s what I want you to hear:
Your true self isn’t too much. It’s just waiting to be met with the right kind of understanding.

The kind that says, “I see you. All of you. And I’m still here.”

As a counsellor, I hear these things often—this sense of not belonging, of fading, of holding back who you are. And I also get how powerful it can be to sit with someone who truly listens and gets it—no judgement, no fixing, just real connection.

You don’t have to keep fading into the background. You don’t have to keep carrying that ache alone.

If any of this resonates, I’d love to offer you a safe, down-to-earth space where you can start reconnecting with yourself, and slowly feel seen again.

I offer a free, no-obligation introductory chat—just to see how it feels, and if working together might be right for you.

Email: louisemalyancounselling@gmail.com
Website: www.wildfirecounsellingtherapy.co.uk

You don’t have to change who you are. You just need the right space to be who you’ve always been.

How Working in 12-Week Years Changed My Life, My Practice—and Helped My ADHD Thrive

Running a private counselling practice means wearing a lot of hats—therapist, admin manager, social media planner, CPD organiser, business owner, human being. For a long time, I felt like I was always playing catch-up. I’d start January full of motivation, then by March feel totally detached from the goals I’d set. Everything felt too far away, too big, too vague.

Then I discovered The 12 Week Year by Brian P. Moran—and it genuinely changed how I live and work.

Instead of trying to plan and pace myself across 12 long months, I started treating each 12-week block like its own mini year. I set focused goals, track my progress weekly, build in rest time, and then start fresh. It keeps things exciting, helps me stay on track, and—most importantly—I do t get bored, it suits my ADHD brain perfectly.

Why 12-Week Years Work for Me:

1. It keeps me focused without overwhelm
I choose a few clear goals each cycle—personal and professional. I'm not trying to do everything—just the right things for this moment in time.

2. It matches my energy cycles
If you’re neurodivergent, you might know the pattern: super motivated, super inspired… then crash. The 12-week approach gives me structure and enough novelty that I don’t get bored or burnt out.

3. It gives me permission to rest
Each cycle ends with a reflection and reset period. I build in space for breaks, holidays, or simply slower weeks to breathe, think and realign.

4. It helps me balance my life, not just my work
Each 12-week year includes the goals I need to hit financially, but also the things I want to experience—things that bring joy, growth, and connection.

What I’m Focusing on This 12-Week Year:

This next cycle is all about balance, creativity, and expansion. Here's what I'm leaning into:

• Getting to the gym more often – moving my body helps settle my mind and lifts my mood

• More self-care – not just bubble baths, but boundary-setting, rest, good food, and space to feel

• An inner child training retreat – a deep, meaningful few days doing my own inner work so I can better hold space for others

• A shame course – to deepen my understanding of how shame impacts my clients and how to gently work with it

• Another inner child theory course – because I’m always learning and evolving my practice

• A cupcake decorating course – just for fun, because joy and play are also healing

I also look at what I want to earn over the 12 weeks, how many clients I’d like to support, and which CPD trainings I want to attend that truly nourish my practice.

ADHD-Friendly, Therapist-Approved

This way of working has honestly transformed my business and my wellbeing. I no longer feel stretched thin trying to manage a whole year in my head. I get to reflect, refocus, and reset more regularly. My practice has grown in ways that feel aligned, not forced. And most importantly—I enjoy the process.

If you’ve ever struggled with long-term planning, or felt like the traditional calendar just doesn’t work for your brain, this might be something to explore for yourself too.

And if you’re looking to work with a therapist who gets it—someone who understands the pressure, the overstimulation, the burnout, and the longing for something gentler and more real—my inbox is open.

I offer a free, no-obligation introductory session, and together we can look at how counselling could support you, wherever you are in your own season.

Email: louisemalyancounselling@gmail.com
Website: www.wildfirecounsellingtherapy.co.uk